Rainy Monday

Yesterday was a restful day. Some of my friends around here were a little ticked b-c i didnt end up going with them to the beach// i hadnt slept much the night before and was so tired the prvious 2 days so I had wanted to sleep to catch up at some point, since I´d been having a hard time waking up to my alarms, but I was getting up b-c i todl them id go and didnt know how to communicate to them to say go without me, but anywho, didnt go after them waiting on me-callign me persisting that i go, but i just didnt feel right in going// felt i should not go and take the time to myself i prayed God would help me that i wouldnt feel bad about not going-that he´d provide for me when i felt lonely and it was the greatest day ever.
Austin and I ended up playing games online using skype and had a blast-- we had wanted to play battle ship before i left but never did but used skype and found `sea battle´ or something and played bingo// it was a really good time bc we both had missed having some quality time and this was a great day for it. i dont regret not going at all ... it was great bc i slept more // basically most of the day and also got to spend time with aust..
i heard it was freezing at this beach place//whch id looked up the  night before and it seemed like it was going to be. i was already cold staying in brussels i just didnt feel like doing the beach thing walking around and not ever getting to rest sounded dreadful to me...
went to sleep again in the night, and got up for class today. it went well and i found out there is another one cancelled for the afternoon so i have time to go shopping for dinner proteins and nap if i want and possibly schedule a 10 euro flight to stockholm, bologna, or oslo for sept 17-19.
i wrote this in response to Auntie Mary about ppl here - ppl in the world needing God to give light::::

true about ppl and their values andi especially notice this in the classroom// how discussion goes and the ppl and profs discusss topics there is no hope and its no wonder they discuss things the way they do// this earth is all they have hope or tolerance fo rand then  forget ignore that there could be anything else//such as heaven or hell.. it is sad
its hard bc i normally get so affected when ppl arent christians bc i see the brevity of life and how these ppl are going to be suffering in hell// how incredibly tragic and awful for my heart to think of... how do i get to have security awesome providing of God to be able to spend forever with him and these ppl will have to wake up to a very extremely awful reality once they die

i see how ppl justify and make excuses for how they must go to heaven and its too hard to choose and bleieve that theres a hell// because if there is then that means theyll hve to believe and follow a God/ and why would you want to follow someone else? its so much easier to make your own rules and follow your own patterns for life// i just dont know ha this world sucks and its a reality check for me to see how much of this world IS so fallen// we´re in desparate need of christians to shape up and be the gospel to others// not to blend into the world´s norm... i will be different i hope and i hope they will recognize

there is a joy and life within me that is not me , it is my SAvior who has redeemed me and set me apart although i sin and i fail and i fall i am not this worlds and i am different amen!!

God, be the torch of light within me and change this world around me, I pray in Your holy Name.

on the note of lunch--- i got a sandwich for 3 euro at the place below the office / it was my first one as i didnt have time to make one it was poulet curry and i still have some left over// chicken curry.. good tastes indian
would like to ask sabine about massage therapist
and still  havent felt id have time for the health club here so im undecided abou tjoining yet... today i would have time but not sure// might just go outside for a walk and use that as my exercise
did i mention i found a red coat?its very pretty i cant wait to show mom on skype
i hope your birthday weekend was fabulous and that the cubs won! i have no idea though adn can imagine that i shouldnt get my hopes up too much ;)

love to all,
cnp
thanks to gma for the card.. got the second one from her and got one from mama.. i feel so loved =) thanks family you´re wonderful
some girls talked about their trip to paris and said how there isnt really much to see, i mean you do it see it all and youre like wow this is not that exciting, exactly how i feel i mean it was beautiufl historic and awesome to say ive been but defnitely not the most fantastic place in the world// i loved the bridges over the river and the pictures i took there and the crepes and the historical side/ like it was awesome to have crystal swanson and that walking tour guide tell us things like ben franklin used to sit at this cafe everyday and its the oldest one in paris and this is tthe smallest street in paris etc etc, and the little stone circle engraving outside of notre dame is for luck if you kiss your true love over it you will always be togeher.. those kind of legend things are memorable.. ohh or that the notre dame you go in oneside as a sinner and out the other as a saint or the different saints above the door.. all those things were sweet but to just go and make the tour.. i definitely think tricia and i could make it in a day... and itd be cheaper with no hostel to have to pay for... these girls that went didnt buy anything eiether
when i went i got a scarf and perfume bc i thought those were true to paris ;) aww the romance of europe

ok im done love love <3

its interesting to try and use a european keyboard everythings all over the place and not usual to us style