drama AND entertainment

first, the drama happened at 430 pm as i was just getting home from my day out (entertainment), ill mention that later...
just as i was walking into my house from mornign and afternoon afround the markets etc, i ran into stephanie and she said she and julia had talked and julia asked that i not shower after 11 pm, and stephanie said she knows i am opening and closing the doors but if i do shower, to go downstairs, and i said, well thats frustrating or didnt seem to work bc then julia complained about the stairs and the lights on , so i really just dont know how to win...


im soo odisappointed we cant just get along, that she cant be the one who's moving out in a couple weeks, taht she hastn already been the one to move out... thaqt she acts like a 50 yr old brat when she's 23 or somethign...
i cant stand how ridiculous she is...
i mean, so now it ahs to be a new contract where i have to shower before 11 pm or else i cant shower? are you kidding me?
11 pm?

thats hardly nighttime for me, i mean to say before midnight, ok. but BEFORE 11 pm... at 11 pm doesnt even count
thats just absurd

i want to cry...

someone please comfort me
i wish dan were here to help me figure this out.
he wants to be upstairs, he will be up late, he doesnt mind noise, why cant dumb julia just move down to my old room, and dan and i take the upstairs with as much noise as we want, but if julia's the one getting up early EVERY day and going to bed eaerly--- it makes WAY more sense to have her with the kids (who have the SAME schedule... ) i just see no logic in telling me to take a shower at 10:30 pm...

that means i'll have to go to bed at 11 every night if i wanted to take a shower and sleep right after,
and that may be good for me, its definitely not the lifestyle of a college student, and definitely not that of one who is frickin living in europe
!!!!!!!!!
im just so :'[  

i dont even know the words to describe the emotions i feel...

she's not even here to talk much, im showering up there again tonight, and it sucks that she's using stepahnie as a middle person, she cant frickin talk to me,
ugh i hate people like her
its like grow up and laern to live with other people... all the girls i told the story too (which ws like 6... ) all felt taht she was being ridiculous and had never lived with other ppl before (if she really needed to be ina  place wehre there is no noise and light, then she should be renting from a person who has just one tenant and no one else-- i mean tahtwas the poitn the other girls made) and they said carolyn, no you shouldnt be compromising (because i was portraying the story, in my, i'm tryign to meet her at every way, compromise, figure out the best for both, try to suggest better options, very calm, apologetic) and they still were like, carolyn, no !! what !? you gotta stand up for yourself you cant be bothered by that...

its true though, thats college life


i'mmm sooooooooooooooooooo upset right now :'(   :!


then, the entertainment (after getting annoyed and letting some of that die down ...) was that i met alysia, skye, rebecca, kirstin (last 2 are neighbors) for the market (a couple of them--like humoungous flea and farmer's markets) and ventuerd around for maybe 2-3 hours, then skye and tall chris (oh yeah he showed up) they sat and got luncha  little stop, and i walked back to the farmers market to try to find something other than fried food --seems thats all you can get and its always like 6 euros .. i dont want to spend that all the time- so i went over got a grapefruit for 45 cents, an apple for 25 (it was HUGE) and a small parmesan cheese for 1:80.
very good and felt better tahn eating another huge disgusting thing, we're going to sushi tonight (in an hour) and we were also heading to the beer festival thats in brussels righ tnow.. i decided i didnt want to have to pay so i enede up leaving, buti got home and took chris' bike home for him... he didnt need it so ive been meaning to get back out and bike around, as he said i could-- but havent yet, need to so that i still make sushi
it made me soo happy to be riding a bike again.. gosh do i really miss it!! its such a great fall thing to do, or spring, but it just helps me to feel the transitions of the seasons and gives me such delight, its like an adventure/exploring every time you go out and its also exercise and relaxing and good time to think. goodness i love it!!
i remember some girls here asking me what my favorite thing to do with austin is, and i thought about it and felt like it was biking but told her something else, and i asked austin, and he said giong on bike rides... so its funny how much that is really true.  fun bc Papa Bear and i love going on bike rides too- i love biking with you Daddy, its so fun to explore with you and see how far we can coast ;)

ahhh ;) makes me happy to think of biking  ... im grateful we're able to.. so anywho, had a good day exploring etc, and walkign around, fidnign my own lunch, trying on some clothes, seeing teh food, gettign tastes of thigns .. im hungry nwo though so i better grab somethign here before i leave for sushi- otherwise ill be spending a fortune

abby, it was always so fun to get sushi with you, you wre my true inspiration and i loved going with you, sisters, you! :-D (and your dad of course) lots of different and good sushi memories , a random spontaneous date with austin which was one our favorites, a bunch of times getting it for myself at the grocery deli at school, those father daughter times with you johnson/carlson pennington girls ;) even the dc at bethel having great sushi that we got to have them custom order to oru liking-- that was soo fun!! many memories of sushi-- and now, random, here is brussels!! :D
ok, love to all, thanks for reading these. ;) love, cnp